The last two nights I’m really struggling.. idk why it’s hitting me so hard all of a sudden again. I feel like I keep it together for awhile and then I just can’t anymore. Maybe the move kept me busy and my mind distracted. Packing, moving, unpacking. Now that the chaos is settling I don’t have enough to distract me anymore. I just want this pain to stop and never come back. I don’t want to hurt like this. I don’t want to feel the pain of missing them or remember they are gone. I feel like I’m d